It's about time I finally sat down and wrote what has been going on in my life the past 6 weeks. I have been sick. Exhausted. Nauseous. Exhausted. Nauseous. Hmmmmm, wonder what it could be? So, let me back up.......
I came home from
Girl's Camp at the end of August and could not get my act together. I was so tired and finally faced the reality that I might be pregnant. But it was a far fetched idea...or so I thought. I had an IUD so how could I possibly be pregnant?
The last Sunday in August I took a home pregnancy test and sure enough: positive.
I called my doctor the next morning and he got me in right away. I took a test at his office: negative. We did an internal ultrasound: nothing. He checked my IUD: in place; no problem. He assured me that there was no way I was pregnant. Boy, did I feel dumb! Before I went home I went and had some blood work done...just in case. My doctor called me that night. Guess what? I was pregnant.
I went back to the doctor's office the next day to have the IUD removed and thus began my curve ball journey. Since then, for the past 5 weeks I have been to the "drawing station" for blood work 2-3 times a week. They know me by name and shake their head's each time they see me coming. My arms are so bruised!! JK groans each time I pull up to the building...poor little guy! When my hCG levels reached 2,000 I had another ultrasound to determine if I was carrying a viable pregnancy. We found out 2 1/2 weeks ago that it was not. The ultrasound found the sac in my right fallopian tube. I went back to the doctor the following day (the day I went to
TOFW) and had two shots of
methotrexate. So here I am over two weeks later and I am still going and having blood work done (now just once a week) hoping my levels go down to 0 and I won't need surgery.
Through all of this there have been so many blessings:
~I spent all of Labor Day weekend reading the
NieNie Dialogues from start to finish (something I've wanted to do for a long time) while DK took the kids and did super fun stuff.
~One night when I was in the kitchen crying because I had to make dinner the phone rang. It was a woman from church saying she was on her way over to my house with dinner, dessert and flowers....and no, she didn't know anything about my situation! She just felt prompted to serve our family.
~I have been listening to Christmas music (growing up my Dad wouldn't allow Christmas music before Thanksgiving and here it is September and barely October!) because it makes me happy and lifts my spirit.
~I discovered how much I love Diet Raspberry Ginger Ale. Super good!
~DK, my night owl husband, has been up early every morning getting the kids ready for school. He's out the door with Rand at 7:05 to take her to the bus stop and then off to work himself. Amazing!
~One night while DK was at a town meeting I heard a car door in my driveway. It was a friend bringing chocolate chip banana bread for breakfast the next morning and a scrumptious pasta dish for dinner the next night. Manna from heaven!
~My children. The poor dears don't know what to think of all of this. It's something we have decided to not share with them. JK said the funniest thing to me Friday afternoon. Around 3:00, he said, "Mom, why don't you make some macaroni and cheese now so we can have dinner tonight." Another day I heard Rand tell a neighbor what a great mom I was because I let her eat popcorn and ice cream for dinner! Obviously that makes me the the most amazing mom ever! And my sweet Kenners is always there to snuggle or grab a blanket for me or refill my Diet Raspberry Ginger Ale cup. They really are the greatest kiddos in the world. I am so blessed.
~And most importantly, I have felt the comfort of the Spirit and the love of my
Savior.